My babies all are through with school. So sad and yet so exciting. Allison is in 11th grade now. She's such a smart girl. She also got a job at Kroger. She's so excited. her birthday is in a little over a week. 16....WOW. Where did my baby go? She's growing so fast.
Graham starting middle school. It took a lot to even be able to say that yesterday. I can't believe that either. Unimaginable. I remember crying when he started Pre K. Seems like yesterday.
Julianna, she only has 2 years left til she's in middle school. Why are they growing up on me?
Maggie Moo, she's having so many learning issues right now. We'll get it worked out though. She's still very bright. We just have to find another way. I've talked a lot with Mrs Fisher and she said she'd help all she could. She also said they would pray, she would get the small group to pray.
I remember when my daddy was so sick. We had so many people praying. I remember on my way home from work one day. I was praying in the car. Praying God would not take my daddy yet. I kept asking him to PLEASE give me more time. Please don't take my daddy from me. There were so many people praying and I remember that day well. That day, I could feel the prayers. I could feel other people praying for us. I've heard other people say this and until you've really felt it, it's hard to describe. That was one of my miracles that I've experienced.
It's easy to tell someone, "I'll pray for you." I wonder how often someone really does. I do know if I promise to do so then usually at that moment I will say a prayer. I don't want to forget. If I've promised to pray I will do it. I know how important that is.
A few days after I felt that huge amount of loving and caring from others my daddy's cancer went into remission. Not for long but God did listen to us, he did give us time to say goodbye. He did give me that extra time with him. I'm grateful for that time. It did prepare me. I was able to say things to him that I would not have otherwise been able to say. He was not supposed to come home from that hospital but he did. He came home and stayed for over a year. I did get to say goodbye.
Maybe watching our children grow, each year, they get older, we see their successes. We know the time will come when they leave home. We know they will eventually have their own lives to live. Success in school, moving to middle school, passing AP tests.....this is our preparation. This is the time we get before we must say goodbye. Oh how precious that time. I wish I had more.
We each have different chapters in our lives. Through theses chapters we are different people.
I was my daddy's daughter and while I still am, I'm not who I once was. I can't be that little girl anymore.
Now I'm a mom. I'm the caregiver. I help with homework, I'm a taxi driver, I sign slips and pack lunches, I pick out clothes and brush hair. I care for the sick and broken hearted. Soon this chapter will be over too. I will always be a mom but that role will change.
I wonder what my next chapter will be? Grandparent? I'm being prepared for that now. Time will prepare me for what I will be next. Each step of my life, one step closer to what I will become. And yet I know one thing
......I'll never be prepared for goodbye.
