I have spent the better part of this day wallowing in self pity and working hours that I did not want to work. Cleaning house with anomosity because I have felt, as always, very taken for granted of, very unappreciated. I even asked for help a few times only to get ignored.
After I got the house clean and sat down once again to work, I looked over and saw four of the most precious gifts for mothers day. I sat here and cried. I realized then that these four gifts were my whole entire world. I sit hit trembling as I write this because I realize that I sit here these long hours for the people behind these gifts. I have two of the most precious home made flower pots, one with a violet and the other with a handmade flower, a shadow of a little boy that is precious to me and (in my opnion) the most wonderful orchid that was grown. Perfect in every way. I love these gifts. They show me the love that I should be feeling right now. They show me the gratitude and affection.
These gifts ARE my thank you. These gifts are why I do what I do. I'm ever so thankful that I have chidren to work for. Children to clean after and children to love. I only wish right now I could spend more time watching movies and playing outside, playing Wii and reading books. But for now I work.
I know that this is temporary and someday very soon I won't have to sit here all day. I can play.
With this I wish myself happy mothers day. I love being a mom. It's who I am.
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